Story Behind the Party (Part 2) I knew my house is going to have a party to celebrate 2 new born on 23rd Dec and there will be a lot of people coming .... most importanly I guess 95% of them are non believer.. When the email arrive, I knew it's a confirmation but I was a bit fearful... Fearful of the follwong: 1) I need to get my mum to agree on this idea 2) I have no idea what's the "program" of the caroling team 3) I guess I might be the only Christian guest/host 4) I'm afraid the guests will not pay attention to the caroling team on their songs & sharing and this might not be a very good idea to call them there to sing & talk to "nobody" 5) I am not a very patient person and I'm afraid when things does not turn out to be what I expected, I will be disappointment and start to blame shift + regret However, my finger was too fast to type an email an invited the caroling team... After that, I struggle so such to tell my mum about the idea... I found an opportunity to tell her but she wasn't very supportive. And then, while I was talking to the PIC (person in charge), the program will be : 1) Sing a few songs 2) Sharing of what is the true meaning of Christmas 3) Testimony 4) Pray for the host 5) Pray for the baby ** Fainted** hahah ... I really had no idea how to go about it while my mmum was nagging about item (1) cut the long story short..... item 2,3,4 was not done on the day itself.. But there are a few things I really thank God 1) I was busy making balloon when the caroling team arrived.... my mum was the one who coordinate with them and welcome them... 2) Both of my sister in law was very open, once the caroling team arrive and prepare to sing, they brought the baby out and ready to be prayed for 3) Some of my relatives asked me since when I became Christian and they thought my mum also is a believer because she was very friednly to the caroling team. Overall, I just want to thank God of His presence, and the effort the caroling team put in to find & come to my place (it's not easy, trust me).... Even the program doesn't turn out to be what we have planned, but we have already brought Jesus to the party... my guest know there's a Jesus we worship... 23rd December 2006 is the day of the “biggest” party we ever had in our family throughout the history … because of 2 new born baby boy …. (nope, not my child) and(nope, not twins). They are my elder brother & 2nd brother’s sons. The party was really hectic and almost “uncontrollable” … But the story behind it are more interesting to talk about 7:05PM I thank God for things all went well….. (to be continued) Today I am moody However this year is a really “happening year” for me and I decided to take a few days to LOOK at these “happenings” throughout the year sometime next week. I don’t really like the evaluation because I know I will be very emotional and discouraged over things that do not happen according to my expectation (lots to learn here…) As I was clean up my desk & room to welcome year 2007, I was some really old notes, diary, writing, etc… I usually recycle whatever I can, throw away those useless notes and keep those I think I will still want to keep.. Suddenly I feel difficult to breath, hand shaking, mind blank out… some old old stuff brought me back to my nightmare, those time that I wish never exist in my life and I the people I wish I never know.. I do not know what should I do with those notes, continue to keep them so that I remember I had a hard time and had met some “good” people? Or throw it away so that I will never be reminded again the following year when I do cleaning… I pause for a short while, then took a good look at those writing, remember those faces I wish to forget… after that I decided I should throw them away… It is not a very hard decision to make.. after that, I tell myself, I have to live without being haunted by those nightmare .. I hope by throwing those notes, I can also throw away my fear, anger, grief.. The biggest lesson I have to learn in my whole life is FORGIVENESS. I have forgiven them once, twice, …N times, but I still have to continue to forgive. This is very hard… to love your enemy… Father God, teach me today how to forgive and help me to forget… Be Thankful... In my previous post, I mentined I wanted to know how's the world like without me... But the statement that keep ringing in my mind yesterday is "How's the world with God"? This is a very good and valid question posted by my pastor. It woke me up to see that... world without me will not have a lot of change, but the world without God will be hard to imagine.... Had a BBQ Christmas Party at night and the one thing Sam shared is to be thankful to God. Yes.. he is right, though it's a tuff year to walk, but we are still alive until now, we are not crushed... I have to learn to be thankful and not complain Enough ???!!! What's the matter with them? Firstly, I have no full information of what is required, means information not complete Secondly, I too have a life to live. I have family, I have friends, I need time for myself too. I don't live my life standing by to be available at all time to answer questions that I don't even understand. Thirdly, I have had enough of these crap... Enough is enoguh :) I'm hiding myself somewhere in this world for 1 week. Not letting anyone know where I hide.... just want to take a break :) Mission Accomplished I was a bit lazy to write the defects down in a house without fan/aircon, no tables and empty... Went there a few times, but cannot take the heat... maximum hour I stayed in the house was about 1.5 hours... But today decided to get it done ... Woke up 8am and head towards Puchong with my tools:- hammer, screwdriver, masking tape, pencil, pen, stool, permanant marker In the beginning I knocked at every single tile back and forth to confirm whether the tile is hollow or not, checked every corner to find DEFECT... It's a really hard work ;( Have to stand and squad, climb up and down... Thank God I had my breakfast. Cut the long story short... 3 hours later ... finally got something ready to submit... actually I was getting tired and reduce my expection (loosen the criteria). Unfortunately the sales office is closed for lunch break ... No prob ... I went back to my office (in Puchong also) to write down everything properly again... Back to the sales office at 1:30 to submit the complaint form. The sales person asked me "What type of English is this?" *wooowooo* I got offended a bit ;) complain what ... what nice word and grammar are you expecting some more? I sat down there to go through the 69 defects with him one by one... He rewrote everything again .... and that took 1 1/2 hours... Though he said some of the complaint will not be attended, but it's still my right to file my complaints ... I understand something is difficult to rectify, they might need to break it all and redo ... but ...This is the most expensive thing I haev ever bought in my life and it can be better .. Will you accept it if you spent $180,000 to buy a car and found out the door is dented and then the sales person tell you "this is very difficult to touch up, need to change the whole door... you just accept it lar" or " When you got banged later also have to change mah" I know I am very particular ... but but .... I wish they haev done it better... then I will not haev to complaint lo ... Anyhow, the defect list/complain form is completed .. Now, have to wait for 1 month to check again ... most likely I have to fill in 2nd complaint form ... Looking at others. Looking at me Feel so helpless everywhere ... I used to try to handle the problem all by myself and then I got so stressed up at the end.... So now, I change my strategy .... I asked for help when I need, but I got soooooooooo soooooooo sooooooo soooooooo sooooo sooooooo (it really hurts) disappointed with the response I received. Felt like I'm such a stupid idiot that has nothing better to do than asking stupid questions .. Asked myself this question today .... is there a problem with others that I'm complaining about? or I am the person that creates problems to others... My prayer to God tonight will be : God, let me see the world without me ... how will that be? Would it be better ? K. time out ... Zzzzzz Bank Story Started with Hong Leong Bank's TOTAL service breakdown for 7 days... and hence money got stucked there.. Then got a return cheque and I was charged near RM200 ... I have just submitted my 2nd complaint letter to the bank to request for waiver... 12 month interest free installment plan got screwed up (HLB again). They start charging me interest after 6 months. A promotion from the bank to give me 0% interest even if I pay the minimum for my credit card. But then got charged interest also, called up the bank and they will rectify it ... So much of problem with banks :) There's only 1 "good" thing happen to one of the bank today. I went to EON bank to cancel my saving account since I have been using my current account, so the saving account is kinda like useless :) I haev a balance of RM1.83 left, so the bank should pay me back when I close my account. The teller gave me RM2.00 and I just stare at her and then confirm the amount should be RM1.83. She answered "We have no small change"... Errr .... 1) The bank has no small change ... ??? 2) I got extra money by closing account? This is my most interesting experience throughout these months dealing with banks .... Am I dying ?? Unfortunately, something happen at 9:30 am. There's a strong pain from my stomach .. I curl myself up and hide my body in the blanket.. it doesn't help at all. Then I ran to the toilet and sat on the bowl.... nothing happen too . Felt like vomitting.... So I thought, must be food poisoning... Well nothing happen for the next 2 hours except for cold sweat and PAIN !!! PAIN !!!! I couldn't recall whether I felt asleep again or faitned because of the pain... I woke up again at 12 noon and the pain is totally gone. Mum asked me to do a full body checkup... but then because I'm so afraid to know if I'm dying ^_^ I think I will not do it so soon .... |
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